painful lessons/ministering/Harlem/gratitude/prayers

Glad to come upon u once more world...thankful that my heavenly Father has allowed me to live and see His grace and mercy, compassion and peace today.

How was ur week?

Mine was one of painful lessons. God had to put a hole in my pocket, b/c I was dishonoring and disobeying Him with His money. It was indeed embarressing, shameful and painful...but I had to learn this lesson. I thank You Father that You are a perfect parent. You want your children whole.

I've been getting alot of ministering engagements(for poetry/song). I'm asking God is this him opening doors? and should I walk through everyone of them? Today in church, the minister reminded me that people are waiting to hear the good news. Sometimes I struggle with what to share b/c I wanna sing or read something I wanna read. But God may have another song/poem that He's picked out for me to share. I need to accept that I'm ALWAYS gonna stand out...b/c I'm wearing Jesus' name. It's my responsibility and calling to bring forth the gospel whether it be in poetry and song. I will begin praying on this.

So I've had a total loss now of 24 lbs...and I praise God for that! But on the other hand, I've recently but out of control with my eating. Me and God knows it. So I'm going back on my cleansing for 3 wks(no sugar, dairy, eggs, white flour products). I know when I'm out of balance and my choices reflect dysfunction. Thank God I don't have to stay here.

Was gleefully in Harlem yesterday with my good friend/writer for another annual book fair. It was on my mind how tiny I was this time last year and would've LOVED to be that way for Harlem. But God gave me the strength and grace to accept me now(as I continue to work on me)and just walk in self-love and self confidence.

Thank you Father for bringing both my parents through surgical procedures this week. You guided the doctor's hands and are healing them. I thank you for fighting for them regarding the insurance company and for more forthcoming abundance of blessings for them regarding employment and housing. NEW for them. NEW!

And new for me as well. Prayers for my residence, working w/a new producer on my music, and becoming healthy and whole financially. Prayers for theater, song and dance classes. Prayers for working hard to get out of debt. Prayers for finally getting my license. And there's always my desire in the back of my mind for a mate/man of God. But right now God is getting my life together to honor Him in all ways and in all things.

Thank you Father for ordering my footsteps and directing my pathways in You!

I love you