in other news...

My previously- short- sharp-summer- haircut is now wolfin' and in the "between" stages. Wish I could chop it all off again but I'm committed to letting the floor-length mane come forth. patience my dear, patience.

Ever since I came back from Bermuda, I've been dancing my hiney off! God used that salsa class I took on the ship to reignite the fires of dance deep down inside of me. This is a gift and passion He put in me since I've been little and I've been(for bout 10 yrs now)using every excuse in the book as to why I couldn't do it. Was diagnosed w/vertigo. Well I've since given that to God. And If I get a lil dizzy, I will sit down, gain composure and rise again.

I don't think I wrote to u about my Bermuda trip? It was the last week in October and it was the strangest trip I've ever been on. The weather was treacherous, I got sick(along w/half the boat)b/c of the insane tossing back and forth(God's great bodies of water are so powerful!). Big Red visited me(grrr), I forgot to pack some of my essential toiletrees and there was like one day of sun in the whole week! But w/i that mess...My dance was rebirthed and I won 2nd place in the karaoke contest! Meeting and reconnecting w/some artists in dance, theater and music. Yall know this is right up my alleyway. It's what I needed to push my lazy behind out of some holes I'd been in and right into the light. Hallelujah!

I now take salsa at least 2wice a week and the feelings I get are indescribable. I feel like my baby is back. I've been neglecting her for sooooo long. My instructors have already commented on how serious and committed I am to mastering this form of dance. I do rehearse and practice and I need 2 do more of it. What I really desire is to go to dance school. Not just take a few classes(even though that's a HUGE step for me). Ah, God knows my dreams.

I've also picked up some weight(about 15lbs.) and it looks good on me. Although I pray I will NEVER go back to my obese state...physically nor mentally.

I'm not always rising to the present challenges that face me on my dayjob. I've been angry w/God for not rescuing me, instead of just surrendering to His purifying process. Ouch! It hurts!!!! He aint gonna move me, til HE sees fit! I don't like that... But nevertheless, Christ always knows best. You hear that Jaz? Christ ALWAYS knows best.

well that's it 4 now...
I love u all

sun and rain

Christmas weekend wrapup

today I feel as if I could've done more with my day...
got 2 the stores late and lo and behold the lines were insane! i'm not one to be swept up frenzied holiday shopping..neva have been. So that's why i wasn't prepared for the foolishness up in them stores....lol
but was blessed 2 find an AWESOME rare sale and the line went way down by the time I got to the counter..thank u Lord!
Big Red tried to press in on me 2day, so I couldn't do my normal 6-7hr marathon in the store today(not including holiday shopping, I'm a regular marathon shopper!). Felt lazy and wished I could've done more but again Big Red is trying to move in before her time! grrrrrrrrrr!
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Wednesday, Christmas Eve was more like my Christmas, as I spent a great time w/family and friends laughing, playing games, eating and fellowshipping until like 4 in the a.m. On Christmas day I stayed in my soft pink robe all day and had brown rice and turkey for din-din. Quite alright w/me. Actually more people I know was doing that this year than ever before. People are tired and stressed out and this life can suck u dry. I thank God He kept me in His graceful arms all day and I was okay in my solitude.
Heard some great comforting sounds from the radio today. B101 always delivers...as well as 95.7, 96.5 and 97.5. Heard "Life In A Northern Town", "Blurry", "Don't Get Me Wrong", "Last Christmas"(my fav Christmas song ever!), and "Please Don't Stop The Music"...a great musical smorgasboard..wouldn't u say? :-)..but I CAN'T TAKE NO MO "RUDY THE RED-NOSED REINDEER"! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! LOL!

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On another note...I MISS YALL! Haven't touched the blog in 'bout a mth. Still figuring out what I'm gonna do on New Years Eve, if God grants me life. Gonna pray w/my family more..I recommend that highly. The enemy is out to destroy all of us..especially families.

I'm sweet on someone new..yall know my romantic journeys..or lack thereof..lol :-(
this aint gonna be a smooth ride..and I'm gonna be required to let some flesh die..which I AM NOT looking forward too. no sugary sweet ending insert here. I AINT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT..PERIOD.

Gnite
I love u all

"sun and rain"