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wow! almost a month & I'm just now able to get to u....I've concluded that us talking will probably only be once a month..if I can squeeze in more, I will...wish I was like my Lioness who is faithful to her blog! lol.......
I'm in the process of yet again job hunting...o..it's such a burden on the artist...sometimes I comfort myself by thinking of the ones who've had those crazy, odd, depressing & energy-draining jobs whilst pursuing their dreams..they did it
Also I've been battling some ill in my body for about 2 weeks so I haven't been able to send out any poetry manuscripts..uugh! ...I am NOT feeling that...I have to remind myself that it was a much needed break so my body could rest & heal..but..no ..poetry..for..2 WEEKS!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
So the muse & I must reconnect..jobhunting and poetry are oil and water..somewhere deep in my soul I have to make it alright...cause on the real bills have to be paid...it's just draining and I've been a little peeved at my Lord...
Strange but true...I cleaned my apartment like nobody's business and now can't find my precious 20 dollar bill...it's like it disappeared into mid-air! But I wonder if my Father is teaching me a lesson...like he's taking back his money cause I've slacked off with tithing...maybe
And by the way, tis was such a struggle to finally take on the massive task of cleaning my room..but I'm looking at it now and it looks beautiful...I'm so grateful for God's push..
anywhoo...I love u much and I'm onto beddybye cause the lids are closing
it's still...
the sun and rain of it all
peace