AWESOME

yeah man God is AWESOME!
Yesterday my mama told me that me and my Lord make an AWESOME team! HA! I like the sound of that...although many times I am truly NOT in sync with my Lord.

wow, I've missed u guys. Missed writing in this blog. Missed writing, period. It feels good to be here.

So getting back to AWESOME...I will pick up my drivers permit this weekend yall!!!!!!!Jaz WILL be finally burning up the road..man! Long time coming fa sure. I NEVER believed it was possible and that's just being real. I had absolutely no confidence, nor any real desire to gain independence thru driving. But Christ in His mercy and love towards me, has changed my will and conformed it to His. Where now I want to drive and I actually see myself doing it. THIS IS SO HUGE FOR ME. Yeah Lord, we make a great team.

I'm now in my last week of training to obtain my life insurance license. 6 weeks ago I knew nothing of what I know now. Christ removed the confusion and revealed the mysteries of the very hard material I was learning. It's been a frustrating & amazing ride. Now more schooled in matters of finance than I was before...I see God's hand just weaving my life. Causing me to know that I can acquire knowledge of things I never thought I'd mentally grasp. And one day...I will teach that which was taught to me.

So splitting my study time has worked a lil' betta than it has been. Still haven't done my final term papers for bible college..it will be about a week late. I must believe that Christ will help me to get it done, just like He did last semester. I'm gonna hafta dig in this weekend and get it in.


Been going through some really lonesome times as well, through all of this. I would like to have a companion but I've got so much work to do and so much work the Lord must do on and in me. Not sure If I could handle a companionship right now. But it's still in my heart. Been some tears..been some frustrations..been some overwhelming feelings. But God knows. He knows.

As far as the music/poetry is going..I've had a couple shows here and there. I've also recently met a few new artists who I hope to collab with and make some great music with.

Finances are coming together. Being set free and whole in every way. That's God promise to me.

Father help me to be now faithful to You. To lay down my whole heart willingly to You my Lord. I thank You for the lessons. I thank You for Your love that shelters me and shields me and heals me and helps me to want to do better. Thanks for wanting me on Your team...the "A-team"....AWESOME !!